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Saturday, November 27, 2010

falling INLOVE..

Oh how sweet I perceived the word L-o-v-e. I am idealistic and proud of it. I believe in happy endings. I believe that like Juliet, I have my very own Romeo. Like Bella I have my stanning Edward. I believe that my perfect Penguin is out there.

I've been inlove once, only once on my 19 years here on earth but unfortunately it didn't work out for us. Actually I'm not sure if its love, but it lasted for few years before I can say that it's over. That was few years ago before I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.

Our big Dad thought me to be patient when it comes to love. Although, honestly.. sometimes i feel that im tired of being alone. hahaha. Love is patient. That's how I look at it. I may get attracted to somebody but I've learned to guard my heart. It's so HARD to control emotions that's I am very thankful for the gift of CONTROL.

Nowadays,  I just turn my attention unto Penguin stuffs. Penguins are one of the sweetest animal. When they find love, they will stick to it... faithfully. They have a fascinating life. True love, that's the word.

They say that in love nothings permanent, honestly even my insights changes. Why???  because right now I dont believe in happy endings cause true love never ends. :D  and there is one PERMANENT LOVE I know. The love of GOD. Praise You Jesus!!

IM INLOVE... WITH GOD. He issweeter than Romeo and a lot more stanning than Edward. And by the way, He is the one who will lead my Penguin to my life.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Indescribable God

God is truely indescribable. No words can define Him. Your power can't be measured. Your love is never ending.

Last october 31 was a wonderful day to remember. Everyone was saying the name of Jesus. Eveyone was crying. The Holy Spirit is within the hearts of everyone. 

Technically speaking I am a new Christian, that's why Im trying the best that I can to attend church every sunday. But I guess was I put on a test that day of october. I had to babysit my niece and I have to choose if I will go to church and leave Sharlyn with the baby or I will sacrifice and let Sharlyn attend. I was really distracted by that, I want to go badly. Good thing Mommy Emmy called and advised me to take Cali (my niece) with us. At first I thought that it was a really bad idea. It's not easy to take care of  a four month old baby outside your home. She keeps on crying you know. But in the end, we headed to the church with me carrying Cali and Sharlyn carrying the baby stuffs.

Finally, we're at the church. About Cali? yeah, she's perfectly fine. I think. Ate Wendy, Ate Kim and Ate V took care of Cali. I was very shy because thay have to sacrifice for me. Their good hearts gave me the chance to experience God.

Cali was crying after an hour, I thought of going home many times. I don't know what to do. I pitied my niece for she was crying very loud. I can't concentrate on praying. So I ask mommy Emmy, and she said that Satan may be distracting me. I continued to listen to the pastor but I can still hear her crying. I prayed for Cali this time.

I can hear a soft sound of a bell. No more baby cries. My church mates managed to stop Cali from crying. I was relieved. Then the pastor called our attention for an imporatant announcement.

Go and make disciples of all nation. It's the main duty Christians. It is what Pastor Jon is asking for. He wants to keep our fire burning. He challenged every Christian in that function room to participate, he even ask those people to go infront.

Honestly at that time I was confused. I can't say If I am ready to disciple. So I decided to stay. But while everyone was praying I can feel the Holy Spirit within me. I can't stop crying. I was crying loud. I was praying like it's the first time I prayed. It's too hard for me to explain. What I felt was INDESCRIBABLE.
I was relieved from everything. I was perfectly happy.

After church I ask Mommy Emmy to write my name on the registration for discipling. I am mow ready to be used by God. :DDD